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Guy on a Motorbike in Klong Toey 

Perch 

Chumchon Pattana (Development Community) 

Sunbathing Tortises! 

She was the fairest of them all 

hmmm... did the camera go off? 

Dad inspecting his soil stained hand in my favorite hangout - Benjasiri Park 

Lost child in Agalico's enchanted garden :) 

Thru' the looking glass 

Agalico - sunlight shading my ways, soothing my days 

Agalico's quaint, old world, white washed interiors.  

Agalico's Enchanted Garden 

Wabi Sabi 

If I were

If I were and you weren't
whose to say what would happen

If I happened and you didn't
Maybe things would be so very different

If I was born on a ship
grew up on that ship and
never emerged from that ship

Touched only by music and once in life
by a beautiful face
that passed me by with 3000 others

Maybe I'd find that peace that eludes me
On that day when I knew what I wanted
What I could do
and what I couldn't

When things were settled in me.

Maybe I could be who I was meant to be.

Rest Day

Oooh... I took another day off from work today. I think I'll need a job that gives me plenty of flexibility to think, reflect and catch up on life!

I went to yet another cool cafe. This one's called 'Le Gourmet' and .. let me tell you.. if there's one place that's value for money.. it's this place. It's at a quiet back corner of a Japanese strip of shops and supermarkets. I found out about the cafe from a Jap. Magazine that had been translated into Thai for the Bangkokians (and others who can read Thai i guess)

Anyway, what a cute little shop! There was glass table which had goldfishes swimming in it! Yes really! I wanted to sit on that table but then I realized there wasn't enough leg room and wasn't too conducive for me to study.

Anyway, the menu is like this, you can order a tea and it comes with a cake or chocolate of your choice (all the stuff is imported from France I think) and so I ordered a Chamomile Tea and some chocolate looking petite cake. And they brought those two items and an ice tea (welcome drink) and a plate of four macaroon (welcome dessert?) to my table.

Spent about 2 hours or so just working on my Japanese workbook. It was really hard finding words in those word mazes that were in there, had to keep on referring to the earlier pages ... now I know how to say and write 'Island' , 'duck' and 'wind' in Japanese. ... 'Shima', 'Ahiru', 'Kaze' respectively. HAhah.. my great acheivement of the day. So glad I decided to pay this rather expensive coffeeshop a visit instead of the nearby Gloria Jeans man. The number of cool coffeeshops and restaurants in Bangkok is simply endless - even the most intrepid explorer would have difficultly visiting all of them. Some of them are just so hidden away it's impossible to find, even with a map. Trust me, I tried finding this Cafe called 'To die for' on Thonglor street last week. I spent an hour trying to find it. It really was quite a mortal experience.

Dinner beckons.

Will update with some really cool pics of this other cafe I visited the other day called 'Agalico' mmm.... another piece of heaven.

I want to be a kid again 

Crying

So I had a splitting headache today and yesterday at work. And I just thought I needed to get some rest.
I got back home and I went into my room and switched off the lights to just chill.

and then.. suddenly,
I kinda heard this little voice saying, 'deb deb...'
and I was like 'er...hey ... yeah?'

'wait for me'

and then suddenly, in my minds eye I had this image of a small little kid talking to a grown up me.

And the conversation went something like...

small kid: 'deb deb... '
older me: 'yeah?'
small kid: 'won't you stay with me?'
older me: 'yeah sure'
small kid: 'deb deb... '
older me:'ahuh?'
small kid: 'will you look after me?'
older me: 'yeah... sure'
small kid:' deb deb...'
older me: 'ahuh?'
small kid: 'do you love me?'
older me: 'yeah, why not?'
small kid: 'why yes?'
older me: 'well.. coz' you're cute...and...'

suddenly... i just kind of sense what that little kid was saying... she was so full of questions but i think the one thing she really wanted was for me to hug her tight and forget about saying anything else. Coz' sometimes, words just can't express the depth of emotion one has keep locked inside for so long. The little girl I left behind in my youth. The little girl who's always been trailing behind me, darting out of sight everytime i turned around.

Today I hugged her. Loved her... and told her... nothing. Nothing at all. But I cried with her.. for all the things that we couldn't understand. For all the hurt that we experienced. For the things that we saw that hurt us, for the distance that had grown between us in all these years. For all the pain that words cannot explain.

Was I born to be a roadside hawker? 

What color is your Parachute?

I'm going out of my mind trying to think of what I should do after I graduate. I never thought it'd be a big deal... but now i'm really worried about my job prospects. It seems like I've got precious little stamina when it comes to working. As it is, I'm going into work at 10am plus four days a week and checking out at 3pm. And I'm feeling EXHAUSTED. Maybe it's also 'coz translation work really takes alot out of you.

I've been thinking about my job prospects and about what kind of job I'll get after I graduate. Main questions are...

1) will it be interesting?
2)will I be able to do it well?
3) will the people I work with be cool?
4) will it be a job that does not confine me to the office?
5) will it pay me enough to support my loose-spending lifestyle?
6) will it pay me enough to support all my other hobbies
7) will it take me outside of Singapore?


I've been feeling so tired of late. It's all the cafe-hopping and tea drinking which causes me insomnia that's to blame of course. In three weeks here.. i've already blown $600 bucks. And I don't even know what on!

Sigh... how will i ever earn enough to support myself.

HELP!!!!